Guate Guate Guate

July 21st, 2009

Arriving into Guate, I took a taxi to the immigration office to pay my fine, so that I could leave the country without a problem. My driver told me that there were going to be major protests that would shut down center city against the mines. I was excited by the possibility of being in the middle of that, and if I couldn’t be, I was excited that folks were talking about it.

As for my fine, it was about $20 for accidentally overstaying my visa for 18 days. I didn’t know whether or not it was necessary as some folks told me yes and others told me vehemently no. Turns out it wasn’t. The fact that my visa had expired never raised an eyebrow at the airport, and I never had to present proof of having paid the fine. Now I know…

After I paid my fine, I wandered around for a little bit with my heavy backpack until I recognized where I was and headed to the Spanish Cultural Center, where they always have something happening. And the exhibit sure enough was really interesting.

Called “Sagrada Familia” (Sacred Family), the exhibit beguiled me at first with its repeated imagery of two men and a dog, but then I realized what was going on once I found the guide information - it always helps to read.

The two men, Leo Chiachio and Daniel Giannone, are a couple from Argentina who are of note in the Spanish-speaking art world for knitting, embroidery, sewing, and painting porcelain - all by hand, and all traditionally “women’s” popular artforms. The men are never referred to in their bio as a couple only that their dog, Piolín, and them form a “Sagrada Familia”. In their art, they depict themselves as protagonists, sometimes historical figures, but almost always with their dog.

Unfortunately there were only a few of their pieces, all in which I found much joy in the detail, but the other part of their art was to build connections with weaving coops in Guatemala by having the coops depict photographs of the “Sagrada Familia”. Interestingly enough, these coops are situated in the countrysides of Guatemala, which is usually extremely socially conservative. The arrangements of how this was worked out is unclear to me, but nevertheless is interestingly provocative.

Sebatianos
Sebastianos (Sebastians - like Saint Sebastian)

Piolin's toys
Piolín y sus juguetes (Piolín and His Toys)

by the two
Brujas protectoras (Protecting Witches)

and those from Guatemalans, all of which are “Sin título” (Untitled):

Totonicapan
from Totonicapán, a treatment of Leo and Dani with flowers and birds from the region


from Alta Verapaz, a treatment of the three with ceremonial flowers and animals


from Sacatepéquez, a treatment of them in traditional suits from Sololá


from Solalá, a treatment with traditional suits from Santiago Atitlán

After this, I took a bus to the Palacio Nacional, because I was getting hungry and Rey Sol, that great vegetarian restaurant with the diabetic friendly baked goods, is close to there. I had an extended stay incorporating breakfast and lunch and then went to the park in front of the Palacio where I discovered the nucleus of the campesino marches that had been happening throughout the past few day my taxi driver had told me about. The group moved away from the stage as I approached.

Mayan altar
Indigenous Maya always build improvised altars

equipped
They were equipped for a serious rally

I followed the crowd and watched and took pictures as the march headed to the Presidential Palace, where groups were in discussion with government agencies about a cement plant that was approved by the Colom administration above the overwhelming local opposition near Colomba and Coatepeque, a few cities I know well enough to feel at least peripherally involved.

San Juan Sacatepéquez was comprising the bulk of this action as I soon found out that coordinated roadbloacks were taking place all over the country. Seems like the cement plant was the finally straw after years of repeatedly saying no to mines and being ignored and then marginalized.

flag
Hey I recognize that flag! It was the organization that was leading the march through Xela I had caught from the balcony of Casa No’j.

They did a good job of occupying the street in front of the Presidential Palace
They did a good job of occupying the street in front of the Presidential Palace.

Cuc
Comité de Unidad Campesina, CUC, (Committee of Peasant Unity) had their 30th anniversary hats printed using the Mayan method of depicting numbers.

I returned to the park to sit in the shade. I was still carrying two bags, which I felt was somewhat suiting, since most of the people around me had worked harder in the last year than I had in my life.

Sitting with an older man, we chatted for about an hour about politics in Guatemala and my experiences and perspective as a foreigner and indigenous from the US. That is until we heard an explosion. People started standing up and leering towards the police vehicles. I turned around to see smoking pouring out of a police van and an officer get out, shaking his head violently.

Tear gas
A tear gas canister had gone off inside one of the vans!

open the hatch
They opened the hatch and stood back to let it air out.

The old man I was talking to was thinking that it was a media trap, but the police were calm about it all, so it wasn’t as if they had set it off to frame protesters. Just a funny accident. Better than a tragic one.

On the other side of the park camionetas and pickups lined the streets having brought folks from San Juan and other places to the protest.

camionetas
The colorful camionetas waited patiently, but weren’t going anywhere for some time. There was talk that they would be there through the night if it was necessary.

Then the crowd went wild again as it was announced that ousted President of Honduras, Manual Zelaya, was driving out of the Presidential Palace after talks with Guatemalan President Colom. As he passed, the crowd chanted in support of his return and against the Honduran military.

The same resistance to mining activities in Guatemala exists in Honduras, where Canadian mining companies were granted even more access to the land by the government and serves as a sad example to the Guatemalan peasantry of what they do not want to happen in Guatemala. We’re talking huge open-pit cyanide leeching mines. That resistance comprises an important sector of those wanting Zelaya to return to power.

Zelaya
Here’s a picture of Zelaya’s car. Yippie.

We regathered in front of the stage and to my surprise GuateBuena was there to present a mini play about the mines, and they were in the same costumes as when they presented in Xela during el Festival del Absurdo!

start
They started by sharing Mayan cosmovision about the elements, represented by the ladies behind Gustavo.

elements
From left to right we have the land, the forests, fire, air, and water.

campesinos
Campesinos thankful for their clean water after a hard day of work.

But then
But then a business man comes along and asks to try their water. They let him willingly, and he shares with them that he can make it better.

Bettering water
He basically blends it up insisting that it’s clearly better. And instructs them on how to set it up to be efficient so they can make money as a group.


Which they do. You can tell but the woman is smoking two cigarettes and thusly billowing smoke.


She gives up decrying that she’s been exploited and they leave stage.


The businessman bathes in his money happily.


But then soon runs out of money in which to bathe. Someone turned off the faucet.


But thankfully a representative from the World Bank hears his cries and comes to save the day by offering loans in exchange for making changes in the country.


Wondering how he could possibly bring about changes, the representative brings out his friend “Democracy”, which never fails him.


The campesinos return to their land to work it solemnly.


Only to be disrupted by the businessman and Democracy who are taking measurements.


At which point make an offer to buy the land.


Thinking they were getting a lot of money, the campesinos aren’t sure, so they consult with their community (the audience), who tells them NO! over and over again, but the businessman and Democracy pretend not to hear them.


Which opens the door for the cement factory and mining companies to come in.


And the businessman sets about destroying the land and the forests.


But with time the elements returned, and the people rose from their sleep with a roar!


The end.

About this time Karla showed up to take me to her house, where I would be sleeping over night before catching my plane the next morning at 6:15am. We ran into Andreas and Maru at Andreas’ gradmother’s house, where I thought I was going to be staying, and made our way on foot a few blocks away to Karla’s place.

It felt SOOOOO good to sit down and feel settled after having my bag with me for 10 hours! We sat around and talked for a while until it got pitch dark in her house. Her electricity got cut off just days before. Then we ate in a no-frills, hole-in-the-wall comedor, which was actually really good, simple food. Police and soldiers ate at benches next to us as we talked about our experiences with the festival and how working for it was difficult because of the lack of planning, coordination, respect of other peoples’ time, and general communication issues. I felt a lot better after unloading with them, but I’m still not satisfied with not having spoken directly to the persons with whom I had issues.

Going Home

Anyway, Andreas gracefully took me to the airport early and everything went without a hitch. I bought my ticket sometime in mid June. The flight was originally to Chicago, but stopped in Houston. A ticket to Dallas was over $500, but a ticket to Chicago was $238. So I checked my options and arranged to pick up my bags in Houston, go through Customs, catch a city bus to downtown Houston, catch a Greyhound to Dallas after eating at Cali Sandwich in Houston, catch the TRE in Dallas to downtown Fort Worth and then take The T to my house, where I would meet up with Tammy Gomez to check in with someone else who had visited a third world country for a considerable amount of time, and then rest peacefully for a few days visiting family and moving belongings back into my apartment before announcing my return to friends.

It worked.

Upon arrival in Houston, the southern accent was so thick that I found I needed to struggle to catch everything. I still wanted to reply in Spanish, but managed to dig out my trusty old suthin accent and have some interesting conversations with folks on the street and my bus driver before feeling the need to retreat into writing and napping for the trip to Dallas.

I ended up missing the TRE twice, because I was reading the Saturday schedule, but I decided to just wait outside in the heat in order to not miss the next one. When I boarded I decided to treat myself to the top level, which I usually eschew, and a woman was already up top - strange, because I was at the last stop on the line before it headed back the opposite direction…

She was draped in flag print everything with a cross and a giant eagle pendant hanging around her neck. Immediately, she asked me if I was a soldier, and when I replied, “No.”, she assured me that she already knew that. Ok.

She then went on to tell me how I can support the troops through prayer and blah blah blah. Why are Texans so damn crazy? I entertained her for a good 25 minutes or so before we took off back to Fort Worth. I was being assertive about my worldview and managed to squeeze in a brief history of Guatemala as example, which surprised her. She had no clue and admitted that some men do bad things… but it’s ok cause god will blah blah blah blah… Ok, I’m gonna take my seat facing away from you - but then she starts telling me that she fought the KKK as Mayor of Balch Springs, Texas and manage to dethrone them as the city’s driving mechanism. They were bound to make Dallas “into the next Miami” she assured me. This through their drug trade.

She was in the middle of the investigation with the FBI and ATF when she was hit by a drunk driver, which rendered her an amnesiac for eight months - just enough time to depose her as mayor. Afterwards, she realized she could do more good outside of government, which was something her daddy had always told her.

She had a rather large plaque that she carried around with her noting her public service with veteran’s organizations and such. She repeatedly asserted that she has personally met over 300,000 veterans and prayed with them. We are a Christian nation… etc etc etc.

I thanked her for sharing so much, because it really made me stop for a second and reevaluate priorities. I enjoyed the fact that we had a fairly even exchange, too. Rare in and of itself despite her strong opinions - matched perhaps only by my own.

Anyway, I managed to arrive in downtown Fort Worth just after 8pm with none other than Kevin O’Malley on the same train car as me on the lower level. He was just in from five weeks in Japan - much of that time in rural Japan. We talked as we waited for our bus, which we were taking to the same neighborhood. It took an hour to come and when it did we had to drive around in a circle through downtown before heading back to the station again and then headed out to our neighborhood - ahhhhh - I hate the Fort Worth public transportation system!

Welcome home.

I visited my mom then next day for several hours, which went exceedingly well all things considered. I mean, she listened to some of my music for the first time ever and replied that I should always sing in Spanish so people don’t know what I’m saying. She also said sarcastically that indigenous people never did anything wrong in their lives and don’t deserve anything they’re experiencing… Oh, mom…

Good thing I stopped caring a while ago about what she thought.

Curiously enough, she went to make herself a snack and called me into the kitchen because her egg had two yolks.

two yolk egg
Weird, huh? I had never seen anything like it. I took it as an omen and went about moving my essentials out of her house.

For any more information, we should just talk. I think I’m ready now.

Who knows what’ll happen with this blog… thanks for reading =)

A Great Way to Leave Xela!

July 21st, 2009

On Saturday everything changed for the better. GuateBuena showed up early enough to enjoy their breakfast I again prepared at 7am, and the workshops all started on time. Today we were to have both workshops running concurrently - Ludo-Pedogogía and Heurística - as well as the Absurdo en la Calle, which GuateBuena would be performing in suburbs and parks around Xela.

The workshops were going well, and I decided to stick around to help out with them instead of going out with the Guatebuena.

GuateBuena practicing
GuateBuena warming up their skit, which appeared to be much more organized than I had anticipated.

Hmm something about water
Hmm something about water?

I decided to once again scale the roof of Casa No’j, because it was a beautifully clear, sunny day.

Pigeon and church
This is the façade and domes of the Catholic church in Parque Central with a pigeon.

Mawr church
Mawr cherch plz

Pretty enough
Pretty enough to take my mind off stuff.

Then Zuli came by with her son Mateo, the shiest and cutest of boys.

I couldn't help
I couldn’t help but take pictures as he played with his bubbles.

Just two
Just two of the dozen or so that I took of him…

As he playfully posed/ignored me, the Heurística workshop group came into the courtyard and formed a big circle.

Who knows
I had no idea what they were going to do, but it looked interesting as the workshop leader march around saying something to the effect of “this is what primitives do…” followed by…

Scaring
…scaring a woman in the workshop…

Who then
…who then joined him in the skit until everyone the entire group had been scared into joining, which only took a few turns.

Then, I decided to check out the Ludo-Pedogoía workshop…

Seperation exercise
They were doing a common group separation exercise, where they told people who fit into “such and such” category to go to one side of the room or the other.

More better illustrated here
Better illustrated in this picture than the other…

Absurdo en la Calle took a long time to come back, so we also canceled the group discussion this afternoon, too, but it was good to know that it was happening. Things ran so late that another exhibit which was set to open after our event closed actually had to open with us all there, which was good for the event, because we fleshed-out their opening. It was an exhibition of female interior designers, which I guess is a rare thing in the Spanish-speaking world.

Hall
The exhibit was very bright…

Mikaela and I were really wanting to sit in the interesting chairs, but we didn’t know for sure if we could… so we did.

Here
I sat here…

And here...
And here…


But this one was my favorite. It rocks side to side.

Then I decided to step out for a glass of wine. When I came back in she told me she had been scolded, because she decided to sit in every chair and got caught.

After this, we reconvened downstairs to have el cierre which included a video presentation prepared by multimedia artist Andreas and some final social exercises by Andrea and Félix from Nicaragua as well as some words from those who wanted to speak.

The social exercises were fun. In one we each had a page of newspaper in which we imbued our hopes and dreams and then threw them into the air trying to not have them fall to the ground. In a crowd of more than 50 people, it became an obvious metaphor for how we tend to interact with others in our pursuit of our self-interests. We then shared our dreams with others by rubbing them onto one another. Opté las nalgas de mis amigos. And finally, further sharing our dreams, we crumpled up the paper and threw them at each other with the goal of sharing with as many people as possible.

But it was the next exercise that tarnished my long-held, awe-inspiring clean streak. I’m talking about my bright white Spiral Diner hooded sweatshirt. In the next exercise, we essentially did the same thing except with balloons on which we wrote our “dream”, which we then popped between us through hugging each other… The permanent blue ink rubbed right off, splotching my, as-of-then, spotless bright white hooded sweatshirt - just days before I’d return. I thought for sure I would be able show it to folks back home with pride in my ability to stay clean =)

After some concern from folks about my shirt, which I really didn’t care about, we painted the two giant banner draped on the back wall of the courtyard.

Painting without flash
Painting without a flash

Painting with a flash
And with a flash

The finished product in daylight
The finished product in daylight

Right to left
Two of my contribution are here with the heart-A on the upper panel and the tree declaring “Libertad x Nosotros” (Liberty for Us)

Going from right to left
We’re going from right to left. My other contribution was a doodle, which I highlighted in yellow crayon.

More
Looking at it now, I find it really pretty - very much like the walls at 1919 except more concerted and in Spanish =)

The rest
The rest of the lower panel. I don’t have shots of the upper for some reason…

After painting for a moment, I leaned against the wall next to the banner and proceeded to paint myself with white paint where the blue permanent marker had gotten me and then with that failing painted randomly elsewhere.

As we filed out of Casa No’j, everyone headed to a bar that still allows smoking inside against city code, the Movimiento Emergente folks called me up to the office and gave me my personalized parting gift - a small bottle of Quetzalteca rum. Everyone who had worked on the festival got one as well. Very sweet.

Regalito de ron
Regalito de ron con mi nombre. It says “We recognize your absurd support Ramsey”

Quetzalteca brand - local pride
Quetzalteca brand - a local pride

With that I went home, because I wasn’t about to make myself sick right before leaving the country. I was expecting to get sick upon arrival in Texas with the heat and didn’t want to be sicker than I had to be.

Hoodie
My hoodie now dirty…

Goodbyes

I spent Sunday visiting folks and saying goodbye. Sebastian and family gave me my last meal at Sabor de la India for free and wished me lots of luck. I ran into Michael, my favorite yoga instructor at Yoga House.

Juanita and Luís
I made sure to get a picture of Juanita and Luís, whom I had known since February. They’re so cute together or separate.

Monday, I went to the morning announcements at PLQ to say goodbye to the rest of my teachers whom I had missed during Friday graduation.

Lunch today was to be my last meal with Doña Yoli. She cried as she wished me a safe trip, and I got a little teary-eyed. I miss her a lot.

I got my things from Casa No’j, got paid for my expenditures during the festival, said goodbye to all the awesome folks there, and firmed up plans for my despedida in El Infinito.

Returning the guitar I had been borrowing from the school to Marleyne, the director of the community center’s after school programs, I stumbled into a puppet show, which was depicting Mayan legends. A man falls asleep and then dreams the creation myths about men of wood and men of corn, etc.

Puppet Show
Mayan legend puppet show

That evening, we gathered in El Infinito, a ridiculously hip vegetarian bistro/lounge that has great food. I’m glad I went out there, cause I want them, as the only all-veg restaurant in Xela to be successful. All the 15 or so folks that came out had never been there since they renovated and further changed into a bistro except one, and they all loved it. I’m always the veg promoter, aren’t I?

After the peaceful despedida (goodbye party), I went home and finished packing and preparing mentally. I had a bus to catch at 4:30am for the four hour ride to Guatemala City.

Goodbye skylight
Goodbye skylight

Goodbye friend altar
Goodbye friend altar

Los Talleres

July 20th, 2009

Ludo-Pedagogía

One of the workshops that we had promoted to universities, colleges, and NGOs started on Friday morning.

I was up and there, ready, at 7am with breakfast and coffee set-up and ready to go by 7:15am… nobody in the organization showed until 8:15pm despite the fact that the workshops were scheduled to begin at 8am. Folks were waiting. I had had enough, though, and just sat back to relax and prepare mentally for the big change that was coming soon.

The organizational leader didn’t show until almost 9am, but, whatever, I stopped caring so much. The girls in the organization let him have a piece of their mind, and I didn’t feel so isolated within the organization any longer in my desire for respect for other peoples’ time. I decided that I owed it to them to do my responsibilities to the best of my ability for the rest of the festival, which I set about doing.

When the Ludo-Pedagogía workshop started, I made sure to take some pictures to document it, since nobody else was. Andrea Calvi and Félix Pérez work with an international organization called ReLaJo, la Red Latinoamericana de Juego, and they promote the use of games for pleasure and to facilitate the transformation of reality. They are part of the Nicaraguan nucleus. This was the basis of their workshop in the theme of the “absurd”.

This morning workshop was attended mostly by women - with many indigenous women at that.

Fighting over a woman
In this moment, they were fighting over a woman, who was their disputed property.

Posturing
This is Félix yelling about his possession, which soon turns into a metaphor about socialism vs. capitalism.

Populism
Here Andrea uses populism to appeal to the people directly.

Fighting
And soon they are fighting…

Multigenerational
The group was multigenerational.

A view of their space
Just a view of their use of space. The paper in the middle of the room was eventually signed by everyone in the workshop.

Once we convened for an informal moment, we canceled the afternoon group discussion so that we’d have plenty of time for our program of “Absurdo en la Calle”, which was street performances with political messaging from the group of folks from Guatemala City, GuateBuena. The breakfast was mostly for them, too…

Too bad that they didn’t show up at all Friday until the early evening when we started the “Museo Viviente” (Living Museum). They decided to stay up the night before and celebrate a birthday in Casa No’j and didn’t get to bed until sunrise by some accounts.

I decided to take off after making sure that everything was going well enough with the girls to get some things done elsewhere.

I was admittedly a little bitter, since going home and being responsible made me fall prey to a group of robbers, but, hey, it’s Guatemala… Good thing el Museo Viviente went really well and was really interesting.

Museo Viviente DIAY

The Costa Rican students again display an awesome understanding of the absurd in their exhibit of “living photos”. They had dressed up and created scenery as Costa Rican stereotypes, snapped a photo and are re-creating the photo in this performance.

Explanation
My translation:
(This is an exploration over the stereotypes that exist about Costa Ricans on the part of folklore, soccer culture, the precolombian vision, myths of national identity, familial memory, and the stereotype of beauty.

¡DIAY!, a deformity, a vulgar Spanish pronunciation “of here” [perhaps this is to say it's slang], actually it’s a pet phrase that symbolizes the Costa Rican attitude which looks for it’s own accommodation.

Costa Rica is a country of mixes, where the urban, the rural, the own, the others’, the feminine, the masculine, and the foreign transform into a identity construction in which immediacy is above detail.

¡Diay! is an expression that seemed to save time and give up preambles [or introductions], the importance of things behind the concrete, that which touches, that which smells, that which measures - as nonexistent…)

Damn Tico
This sign employs a ridiculous amount of Costa Rican slang, which I could translate, but will suffice to tell you that they are mocking themselves.

Headless
Titled something like “Soccer + Beer + God = Headless”

accurate
Pretty accurate

Definitely weren't silent
They definitely weren’t “photo silent”

Vanity
A statement on aloof vanity

Vanity Viviente
Surrounded by plastic sacks from Costa Rican stores, very concerned with arranging her symbols of Costa Rican business

Drinking
Drinking in a cage draped in the Costa Rican flag

Passed out
Passed out with the flag soaking in water

That's a piece of Costa Rican currency in her hand
That’s a piece of Costa Rican currency in her hand

There were others, too, but their presentations weren’t nearly as clear as these folks’.

After leaving the exhibit, I felt pumped again. Unfortunately, I actually couldn’t be of much help the rest of the night, because we were to be in Pasaje Enríquez showing a short film series of absurdist films and theater performances, but that’s where the folks in the bars smoke, cause it’s “outdoors”. Instead, I went to my last graduation at Proyecto Lingüístico to say goodbye to the teachers with whom I had been friends and to spend time with Louisiana and Jessie.

Then I went to sleepyland.

Sociedad Violenta

July 20th, 2009

¡Unítenos!

While the scene workshops marked the beginning of the our festival week, we had our “convocatoria” Thursday night. By then, the folks from Guatemala City and Nicaragua had come in, so combined with the Costa Ricans and group of stilt-walking clowns brought in from Proyecto Payaso, we had a good number of folks running around. Also the folks from Guate were street performers and jugglers, so we were a group of interesting folks gathered in Parque Central with the promise of a march, performance, video, open-mic, and rawkus music.

Early on
Early on as we got everything running we didn’t appear to be that many, but we grew and grew until we had a good march of folks around the park.

We started video presentations of the tentáculos after the march with my work behind the camera shining big and bright for all to see. I didn’t realize that concurrently to the one in which I was involved, another group was in another park, Parque Benito Juárez, painting themselves and asking folks to participate in the painting.

After this, we opened up the megaphone to the gathered…

During the open-megaphone
During the open-megaphone Gustavo let us have it with a loud denunciation of problems in the country

Afterwards, Mauricio, owner of the cities only gay-owned bar
Lastly, Mauricio, owner of the city’s only gay-owned bar, addressed the gathered in drag denouncing the various “masks” employed by people on a daily basis and noting that he chooses to employ his drag mask in good spirit just the same.


He went on to denounce how queer people are treated by a macho society, which is just wearing a “macho” mask.

Ending his speech with a seemingly endless applause from progressive young people gathered, while the folks from the park just stood slack jawed (and later would harass Mau in the park as he left), we then mobilized ourselves for a dance with multiple limbo beams provided by the stilted clowns and drumming provided by ourselves banging on everything imaginable.

After a quick break-down, we regathered in Casa No’j for a late dinner of paches (rice flour tamales with pepian sauce). I decided not to eat with the group but to go home and rest, because I was responsible for breakfast the following morning at 7am.

Some Luck

I took the same way home as I always take. Sang to myself like I always did. Had my bag hanging across my chest like I always did. It was only 10:30pm, and I could see my house 1 1/2 blocks away, but that didn’t stop a group of guys from coming up on me really fast from the dark corner I always walk through and demanding everything I had on me with a punch to my gut.

Four guys. Two guys flank the sides as look outs as two others run up to me demanding to know where I was from, “¿De dónde sos, vos?” They get a little too close as I answer, “Texas…” And with a punch to my stomach tell me to take everything out of pockets. Hesitating slightly as I judge my options in a split instant, they assure me that it’s not a joke and make a few more short, quick jabs at my gut. I take my phone out, tell them that it’s all I have, and asking them not to do this…

It was all I had in my pockets, which they discovered in the same moment digging around for themselves for my wallet. They were all dressed in navy coveralls, and, as they dug, I looked for but couldn’t see anything bulging from their pockets, and, in that instantaneous realization that they didn’t have waste-bands in which to be hiding a gun, I decide to make a run for it. In my bag, I had my camera, wallet, and iPod - all deliberately buried beneath my Spanish books and notebooks. Maybe I could’ve convinced them I had nothing else, but I didn’t want to risk that, and I could definitely outrun them to the next, much busier street over…

I lift my bag too subtly for them to notice and - HONK! - everything changes. Suddenly their telling me to take my phone back. “¡Tomalo vos!” “¡Digalos que todo está bien!” (Take it, buddy! Tell them that everything is fine!)

::What?:: ::Tell who?!::

They repeat themselves again, and I realize that there are two men in the car parked less than five meters from us. With that a strange truce has swept over their faces as they are trying to look like my friends in front of the men.

I slightly lean away remembering in the momentary limbo that I’m still ready to run, but the car lurches forward just slightly. Sensing a strange salvation, I take a few steps toward to the car and it continues to move with me. The four guys talk make some quick decisions amongst themselves and start walking away briskly through an alley (presumably returning) to the “worse” part of town that my house borders upon.

Gathering speed away from what felt like sheer humiliation, the driver rolled down his window to ask me where I lived. After initial confusion about what I should do, I told him back the other way and that I would be fine to walk back to Parque Central and Casa No’j, where all my friends were partying. With that as we came back into the bright lights of the closed Esso (Exxon) station, they sped off.

I walked around the corner to the busy street and, sure enough, there was a group of gringos heading back toward Parque Bolívar, from which I lived one block. I trailed them closely as though I was walking with them as I constantly looked behind me where there were Guatemalan faces making the same after dark trek who surely knew this anxiety well.

Arriving in my hostel after carefully and swiftly judging my streets around corners, I laid down in bed with my door open hoping someone would come home quickly so I could at least mention it to them. Jen fulfilled that wish about ten minutes later and fell into horror as she realized she just took that same path alone through the same dark alley.

Lucky for her that it was me. Lucky for me that those guys were parked there. Were they neighborhood patrol? What were they doing parked in a dark parking lot? What were they doing even giving a shit and not just watching like that which happened less than a week earlier, again right in front of my house, when two drunk guys tried to start a fight with me.

Fucking Belligerence

It was just the Sunday before, and I was on my way to see La Era del Hielo 3 (Ice Age 3) in the theater with Thomas, Ruth, and the sweet family of A Casa Di Tete. I was late, and Thomas is always punctual, so I really was in a hurry.

Two drunk guys were sitting on the steps to my hostel, Casa de l@s Amig@s, and asked me where I was from, “¿De dónde sos, vos?” an opening question to which I no longer respond well… I told them, “Texas, pero tengo que correr, porque estoy tarde y un amigo está esperándome.” (Texas, but I have to run, because I’m late and a friend is waiting for me.) To which one responded that I was going to listen to him - “¡No, vos vas a escucharme ahora!” (No, you’re gonna listen to me, now!)

I, of course, just looked at him funny but then offered a compromise, “Podés caminar conmigo hasta el parque, pero, realmente, tengo prisa, y tengo que correr ahorita.” (You can walk with me until the park, but, really, I’m busy, and I have to run now.”) And, with that, I went on my way…

Only to notice that he was running towards me yelling that I was going to listen to him…

So I turned around to address him again, and he tried to hit me - open-palmed, but he was so drunk and was moving so slow that I blocked him and continued to slow him down by asking him why he was doing what he was doing and what I had done to him while insisting still that I had no time to listen to him, which only made him angrier.

He then tried kicking at me but only hit my slumping bag as I jumped back, which knocked my umbrella to the ground, breaking a bit of plastic off of it. At this point, we had stopped nearby foot traffic, which was silently watching me getting attacked by a clearly drunk person. Getting angrier and impatient with his belligerence, I blocked his next two attempts to hit me again and got the nerve to charge at him yelling, “¡Vení aquí, vos!” (Come here, buddy!), which took him off his offensive just enough to give me space to lunge away knowing I could outrun him easy, yelling back at him, “¡Si me querés, vení! ¡Corré¡ ¡Vení aquí! Come get me!” (If you want me, come on! Run! Come here! Come get me!)

A rush of adrenaline left me flushed and flustered when I found Thomas waiting for me in the park. We made it to the movie just in the nick of time only to discover that they had oversold the tickets and we would have to wait until the next show an hour later.

Open Palms

That drunk’s open-palmed punch took me back to the only other time I had been directly attacked or threatened in all my time in Guatemala. It was yet another drunk couple, but this instance were an older man and woman who were claiming that someone hit the guy over the head with a bottle in Pala Life Klische, the gay-owned bar. They just started swinging at people, obviously trashed, ruining the 4th Anniversary party. Thankfully, this was well after I had performed.

Thinking I could actually mediate the situation (I was pretty buzzed), I wondered over to the door and tried to reason with the guy telling him I was sorry for what happened, but it would just be best if he left. He was despondent at first but then somewhat resigned after being locked out, but his partner was another story. She was yelling still about how he shouldn’t have to leave, and I, not realizing they were partners, non-nonchalantly called him crazy to which she responded with an open-palmed punch in my face - one of, if not the, only direct punch ever landed on me. Ow!

That was it for me for that night. It was already after midnight, and the indoor smoking had started, so I left, taking my usual path through Parque Central. Being buzzed pretty buzzed, I was pretty nonobservant of what was happening in the park. I was just passing through until a yell shot out and a pair of glasses flew through the air to land and smash directly in front of me. Looking up, about a meter away was a group of about seven guys totally embroiled in a fight. One, the guy who had was wearing the glasses, was screaming at horrifically at the top of his lungs and sloppily trying to hit another guy. I stopped in my tracks just as bottle was broken on the ground and thrown into the mix.

I walked away from the fight, as all the eyes in the park stared beyond me as I stared into their faces. I could do nothing as I knew nothing and was outnumbered. This was different than those that had watched me getting attacked for no reason. No protests. Just slacked jaws and anaerobic curiosity.

I was tense for days playing in my mind the images of the fight and seeing the glasses scrape and break on the ground, hearing the pop of the broken bottle as it was carried into the drunken tangle of egos I didn’t understand but by which I was almost engulfed.

Reflections

Until I my attempted robbery I felt very safe in the city - much more so than in the country-side. I felt so safe that I frequently went walking around alone at night - sometimes well past midnight (remember the story of when I was followed by two women in a car?).

This is despite the fact that I was living with Doña Yoli at the time that she was robbed at gun and knife point en el mercado Democracia. Despite the fact that my friend Thomas was robbed in daylight on el Baúl, one of the mountains that overlook Xela. Despite the fact that more than a dozen people I had met had their credit/debit information stolen electronically sometimes with devastating effect. Despite the fact that I had been warned against walking around after dark alone.

At first, I was more cautious, but with time I got more lenient with myself. Could’ve happened back home… but anyway, I know now for sure.

Look around corners. Check your back. Go in group. Watch what you bring with you. Guatemala is dangerous…

More of the Absurd

July 20th, 2009

Festival week was on. The Costa Ricans were working hard in their morning performance workshops. The “scene art” students came in from the University of Costa Rica for a three day workshop series which would culminate in street performances around the city they were calling “tentáculos” (tentacles).

I was interested in their workshops, but every morning was started with a 7am Movimiento Emergente meeting, which would last at least a few hours while we hammered at the last minute details of the festival - at least in theory. We were actually hammering out major components of the schedule and technical aspects of how the festival would run, which should have been discussed and finalized much, much earlier… aaaaaand we never actually met at 7am but sat around waiting for the lead festival organizer to decide to grace us with his presence… nevertheless, I missed their workshops when I coulld’ve at least sat in on the majority of what was happening. Just sayin’.

Los Tentáculos

Wednesday afternoon we prepared to document the events, and I had the pleasure of video taping a group of participants whose performance would actually be an experiment in social interaction wherein they would be wearing traditional indigenous dress made out of butcher paper on which folks on the street would write various answer to the participants’ questions like “Where would you like to visit?” and “What’s your dream?”

But first the big group would do their thing, which I knew nothing about. From appearances, one or more of them would spontaneously decide to strike a pose while others would mimic the pose, others would pantomime documenting it all through fotos, while others still would visibly ignore the happenstance. I don’t know if this was their intention, but it’s what I saw - I never received (or requested) an explanation.

I managed to document the tail end of it all in video while I waited in Parque Central, and the guy who was using my camera took some pictures.

What's going on
What’s going on?

Ok
Ok…

Mmm hmm
Mmm hmm

=)
=)

Really, these guys are a lot of fun, and I enjoyed watching them.
Really, these folks were a lot of fun as was watching them.

Heh heh
Heh heh…

Immediately afterward, we started our tentáculo.

Getting dressed in the park
Getting dressed in the park

Uh-oh wardrobe malfunction
Uh-oh wardrobe malfunction while asking drivers stopped at lights to write their dreams

Most folks thought it was at least amusing
Most folks thought it was at least amusing

Even the police
Even the police joined in

Sometimes whole families got in on the action
Sometimes whole families got in on the action. These guys were parked at the bank.

Folks doing some shopping
Folks doing a little shopping seemed to like it

Skateboarders, too
Skateboarders, too

Women in real traditional suits, too
Women in real traditional suits, too. Peek-a-boo that’s me, too.

In fact the only time it was a problem
In fact, the only time we were ever a problem was when the light turned green… uh-oh…

HONK HONK!!
HONK HONK!!

A semi-precious view of a man in traditional suit
A semi-rare view of a man in traditional suit

After an hour and a half
After an hour and half or so we started to run out of space

So we decided to call it a day at about two hours
So we decided to call it a day after about two hours

Good timing, too
Good timing, too, cause it just started to rain!

Ay! We ran to Pasaje Enriquez to reconvene
Ay! We ran to Pasaje Enriquez to reconvene and share our thoughts

Two of the Costa Ricans
Two of the Costa Ricans and their students

We rolled up the suits
We rolled up the suits

Tied them up
Tied them up

And then discussed our experiences
And then discussed our experiences

The only folks that didn’t want to participate were those that were camera shy. I never saw a single person that didn’t give a genuine smile at some point during their interaction. Kids didn’t really have “dreams” so they drew flowers and trees. Older folks generally wanted that their children and grandchildren would be safe and healthy. Young folks wanted world peace and happiness. And lots of folks wanted to visit other parts of Guatemala and the United States.

All in all it was a fun, simple, and fairly terse exercise.